Sabotage

No, not the Beastie Boys song, I’m talking about my subconscious mind.  It seems that I’ve felt so shitty for so long that the one remaining element I need to conquer is my subconscious mind.

I sabotage myself every opportunity I get.  With women, with my health, and with my political activities.  I need to lose weight.  It’s a sad but true fact.  I also need to stop letting my emotions take control of me.  I need to be the one controlling them.  I had something deep and meaningful to write here, but that was yesterday and now it’s today and I’ve forgotten.  **sigh** when will I learn?